Thank My Favorite Scorpio for this one; A very fitting thought for the new year….
“When I was a young man, I wanted to change the world. I found it was difficult to change the world, so I tried to change my nation. When I found I couldn’t change the nation, I began to focus on my town. I couldn’t change the town and as an older man, I tried to change my family. Now, as an old man, I realize the only thing I can change is myself, and suddenly I realize that if long ago I had changed myself, I could have made an impact on my family. My family and I could have made an impact on our town. Their impact could have changed the nation and I could indeed have changed the world.” -Unknown Monk 1100A.D
I’ve never spent a Christmas Eve alone before. It’s somehow, beautifully, poignantly, wonderful. I feel such gratitude. Such peace. Such a contrast to last year. No emptiness, no aching, no sadness, no missing. Ok maybe some missing but it’s the good kind of missing. A (sort of) intentional night to myself. Apple cider, crackling fire, and tremendous gratitude.
Ahh but still i’m wishing SO MUCH happiness for you all. Hoping that you’re surrounded by love and laughter and sweetness. Hoping that your heart is full. That your tree is full. That all the ornaments have finally found a home worth hanging in.
Merry Christmas. Everyone.
December 19th 2010
“Hey You! Yeah You!” ….the inspiring speaker asked…. “What was GREAT about your year?”
Well, the year’s not over yet but when I look back on it all, there’s SO MUCH, SO GREAT, that I am literally overwhelmed with the number of AMAZING moments that flood through my memory. From the smallest gems of everyday contentment to the greatest moments of personal and professional joy, success, adventure, laughter, empowerment, growth, music, food, and friendship! I am utterly without words for the amount of “GREAT” in my year (well except maybe for some of these words here ;)
If connection, alone, was all I had to be thankful for this year, well then this year was the greatest year of my life!! The sheer VOLUME of LOVE from those in my life, both old and new, brings tears of gratitude to my eyes! I have the most amazing empowering, loving, caring, giving, thoughtful, genuine, creative, inspired, friends (and family) in the world! And thankfully that VOLUME of LOVE is only expanding, exponentially!
But what was TRULY GREAT about my year was in fact, the parts that were truly NOT great. That likely makes no sense (unless you’ve been reading this blog) but essentially what I’m saying is that what was GREAT this year was realizing that every single dark or difficult moment (no matter how, painful, unwelcome, or unjust) was overflowing with a brilliant lesson, an unseen opportunity, a new perspective, a brighter option or an entirely new path forward to a more fufilling, empowered, balanced, congruent, abundantly amazing life!
Intellectually I’ve known this forever but to know, and to act on what you know (consistently), are two entirely different things. Thankfully the intensity of my experiences this year have fused knowing and acting into an embodied and instantaneous response, to the worst of any experience, that begins with the question… “WHAT IS AMAZING about this?!”
It may sound pollyannish but when you’re consistently searching for the AMAZING in the awful (or even in the negligibly disagreeable) you begin to instinctively see, find and experience AMAZING in everything. It’s incredible! Suddenly the worst experiences in your entire life are pure abundant gift! Suddenly you KNOW there’s always an UP side! In fact there are always MULTIPLE UP sides! In fact there’s so much UP in the downs that the downs are freakin AWESOME!
The “What’s Amazing…” question is so empowering that before you know it you’ll be looking back on your year and asking not, “What was great about this year” but rather, “What was great about what sucked this year!?! It’s a question and response that will likely be more uplifting than the parts of your year that actually were great! So I have to ask (and hopefully you’ll want to share your response in the comments below)… what was GREAT (about what sucked) for YOU this year?!